Zen Mama Wannabee Banner

Moving Again

MovingAgain

Goodbye Connecticut

 Moving – again. Some people move only two or three times in their lifetimes. I have moved more times that I can count. More times than I have fingers and toes to count off on. You would think I would be good at moving by now. You would think it would come easily to me, certainly after all this “practice” I have had. It doesn’t. It feels as strange and foreign and difficult to me as if it is my first time.

I wanted to give my children roots. You know, that proverbial house with a white picket fence. A family home to come back to once they had grown and moved on with their lives. Height markings on the wall showing their growth over the years. A chip in the hardwood floor, worn down into a groove over the years, which was first created in a terrible temper tantrum when one of them was three. We have …

Read more »

You Get What You Expect – so what do you expect?

Why do we put limits on ourselves as though there is no way we can get what we REALLY want and who do we think we are for asking for it all anyway?  Is it wrong to us to expect certain things to just work out?  After all, why shouldn’t they? You know, smooth sailing ahead. Why can’t things fall into place effortlessly in our lives?  Why is our expectation so often the opposite?  Yes, why indeed?

When one talks of moving to a new place, one of the first things to do is to find a place to live.  We did that – and may I mention that it truly seemed to fall into place.  A lovely house, almost completely remodeled – practically new.  It had just about everything on my list of what I wanted in a house, and certainly ALL the major points that would have been deal breakers otherwise (big yard for the kids, nice office …

Read more »

Having the Guts to Move

“Ok, I get the fact that you’re moving,” one friend said to me.  “But to Connecticut?? It’s as if you closed your eyes and threw a dart at a map of the United States.” “Wow!” said another acquaintance, “I could never do that, to just pack up and move across the country.  I wouldn’t have the guts.”

Ah yes, having the guts.  I remember back when I graduated from college and was thinking about making my first “big” move – out to Colorado. At 23, it sounded like quite the adventure. It was as though I could picture my life if I stayed in Southern California (the job/career, the good friends, the eventual husband and kids and house in the suburbs where all houses looked the same) and the thought stifled me to my inner core.  Sure, it sounded like a fine life – it just didn’t sound like an exciting life.  I didn’t want to look back at …

Read more »

How the Kids Handled the News (A Year of Change – Part 2)

The tears came much sooner than I had been expecting.  As soon as they heard the opening paragraph of my much-thought-about somewhat-prepared announcement, the question was blurted out: “You mean we’re moving??” I had barely got the “s” of Yes out of my mouth before my Little One burst into sobs.  Hmm – not quite what I had hoped.

My son immediately took over, drilling us with questions, his brow furrowed as he tried to make sense of it.  Working hard at answering what he threw at us distracted me enough that I didn’t notice how his eyes were watering as he struggled to hold it all together – for as long as he could. Was this our rock bottom?  I didn’t have to wonder for long – the answer was pretty clear:  Nope, not yet – as bad as it is, we still have a ways to go.

The conversation has continued, on and off for over a day …

Read more »

One Word to Sum it All Up

AGH!  May I say that again?  AGH!!!!  That’s it – that’s my word; quite frankly, that is my life right now.  Some people have easy-going lives that plod along, staying the course amidst any turmoil.  Not the case for this Zen Mama Wannabe.  My life is so upside down, inside out, high, low, and everything and anything in-between.  I don’t know which end is up – but that is ok, because as you all know, you cannot keep a good Zen Mama down for long.  I am slowly getting back on my feet, back in my groove – so look out, World! Well, soon enough anyway.

It is hard to find me right now among all the moving boxes.  They are piled so high and crammed so full – and they seem to be multiplying!  Going from a big house to a smaller house is tricky, even with a storage unit, which is also packed so full …

Read more »


Archives